It's Takes Love to keep This Boat in the Air. If You Love Her She'll Continue to Sail Even When She Should Fall Out of the Sky

'A house is not a home without a family. Families are made of more than blood.'

At the moment, my bloodless Norfolk Family is exactly who I want to be around. I think it's the unending devotion we have for one another and the fact that we don't question each other and accept our motives and personalities. We are who we are and we're all fine with that. I want that sort of acceptance and free love that I'm not getting here. I also want the qualities of love and free acception that I'm missing here. I want all the jokes and the games that just are amongst us. I need somebody who will just listen to me, have no hidden motives and give me advice. I mean, I have people here for that, but there is something more that people from Norfolk have that I crave and need.

I can't fit everything I want or need into sensical words for this, but I do understand what it is that I crave. I crave my Bloodless Family because we are all just so perfect together. Our perversions and psychosis, our morality and honorability, our talents and faults. They're the full unquestioned package that combined make up stronger. Where one is weak, another is strong and together we're a force to be reckoned with.

As to the family aspect of it, I wrote this out more and better last night, but this will have to do. I don't feel attached or wanted by my family half the time and I'm entirely ready to seriously become estranged from my father. He's angered me too many times and things aren't working. I think we need to stop and try again when he's mature enough to meet me on the level that I'm at. My eldest brother and I don't really interact so I have no real issue with leaving. He makes me feel not welcome in my own home. It's OUR house and I look out for me first because I know neither you nor Dorien will. Dorien's not quite so bad, but still, we all have our own agendas my Miguel has issues with me that are long standing. I don't know why he can't stand me, and I'm not one to back down to a challenge. I'll step up and defend myself if nothing else. I'll defend my life and my rights. I'll make my counter offensive and live my life as best I can.

I don't think this went anywhere I wanted it to, but that's fine.

Adios for now
:salute and bow:
Jasmine P.