Questions and Statements

I'm not asking for answers to any of this, it's just what goes on in my head sometimes. How bad is it if I ask that nobody comments on this? And don't like it either, I think the like feature is bollocks.

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Why

Why am I such shit at staying asleep?

Why do I lose interest in people from simply not pursing them?

Why am I so fucking passive aggressive?

Why do I want or feel as if I need other people to tell me I'm a good person for me to believe it?

Why so much self-loathing?

Why do I run away?

Why do I speak my mind as rarely as I do?

Why do I speak my mind at the wrong times?

Why am I so fucking vague?

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Pretend

Sometimes I feel as if I'm a kid pretending to be an adult.

Sometimes I pretend I'm a kid when I want to shirk my responsilbilties.

I might pretend I never wrote this



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How

How can I be vain at the same time as I have low self-esteem?

How long will I feel like this?

How long until I am able to deal with this better?



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Statement

I second guess most of the comments I leave before I leave them.

I only look at a few people's profile pages.

Every now and again I click on webpages/websites linked from profile information

I can't stand tagging people, I feel as if I'm being exclusionary

I only read notes sporadically

I feel as if I impose.

I don't mean to be as abrasive as I feel I come off as
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What

What do I need to do to be happy?

What am I doing wrong?

What am I doing right?

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When

When will I be happy with me for more than a few hours, days or weeks at a time?

When will I feel loved? And I do mean feel it. I know I am loved, but sometimes I don't always feel it.

When will I get off my ass and publish things?

When will I feel successful?

Jasmine P.

--This could go on, but I don't feel like it.