November 26, 2007

What I Want

I want some one to think I'm special. Someone who values me and loves me. I want someone to love, and someone to love me back, just as much if not more. I don't want to be alone. I'm such a freakin' romantic, but I want this person to know me. I want it to be some one who understands and accepts me as I am. I want someone I can focus massive amounts of attention on and not be called a stalker, someone I can monopolize and spend time with. Someone who keeps me calm and will just listen to my insane ramblings, sometimes encouraging them, other times hindering them. I want someone. I want to be loved and know I'm being loved as more than a friend. I want someone I can just chill with, lay with be absolutely comfortable with. I want someone I can confide in at any/all hours, someone to take care of me. I want someone to take care of, someone who will rant and vent to me so I can comfort them. I want someone to touch and hold and to not have to make up some weird excuse to do so.

I just plain want.

November 18, 2007

The week in a few paragraphs

Today was peaceful.

But to begin, let's start with last week. I went out to dinner 4 times, ridiculous, Sunday dinner, Wednesday dinner at Waffle House, Friday night, dinner #2 at IHOP then over to Doumar's for ice cream, then a lunner at La Herradura on Saturdya with Wesley House people and Lizabeth.

Today was also the first day in over a week that I haven't seen Lizabeth, but it's alright, i got ot hang out with C.R., very relaxing hanging with CR.

Hmm, last week i felt my winter depression return, again. It was annoying, after practice on Tuesday I went out to the cliff by the river and dug a hole with my bare hands because i had to think through somethings. I came to the conclusion that i did want a boyfriend, and I figured out why. The problem is there's no guy I really like so I've got no one to direct these feelings, so I think I take comfort around anybody, or any guy. Hell, because I had to do something on Monday I ended up spending the evening at Glenn and Zorro's with Glenn watching 'The Last King of Scotland' It was interesting watching a movie with Glenn, he's silly.

Wednesday we went out to Virginia Wesleyan to Tidewater FC, that was nice. Rhonda was friggin awesome and Dave Catoe was not half as scary then as he was on the 8th. I reviewed the parries, 6,4,7,8 and kind of learned some new things.

Thuesday I spent lots of time with Lizabeth and blah blah blah, classes and such. Practice as usual then nothing special.

Last week I had a fixation on a friend of mine and thankfully I've moved past that. I spent most of Friday at Wesley house and Saturday there also. Saw the Birds and was most amused. There were a lot of masturbation jokes, but they made me laugh. Friday, I took Zorro, Nick D and Lizabeth to the greenhouse on the top of MGB. Zorro and nick were all sorts of excited which made me more excited and amused to be up there. We also wandered around and I think I have a new perception of Nick, Zorro and Sean [Sean from other interaction]

Nothing special today. Hung out downstairs with CR which was quite pleasant because we haven't really seen each other in a while. It also calmed me in a way. My guy friends, especially do that. Any of them, well, not quite any, but a few of them for sure. I'm not sure why I'm so comfortable around them, but I just am. I really do prefer to stay with guys. I think having had two brothers made me that much more comfortable with being around guys.

Adios for now
:salute and bow:
Jasmine P.

November 11, 2007

Sunday Dinner, 11/11/07

I'm so spoiled, demanding to go out to dinner every Sunday with various friends. Last week was just Anthony, Lizabeth and me, this week is was that trio of us, Allison and J, Nick and Glenn. We hit up the Mexican place in the Village which was fun. Glenn only bought dessert because he happened to eat before coming back to the Norfolk area. We honored Pete Conomikes, he was a fencing coach at The College of W&M. He died in a car accident yesterday on the way up to a grand tournament. I never met him, but that doesn't mean I won't tip my hat in his honor.

Back to tonight, it was not a night of perversion, it was a night of 'god, we were stupid kids' my stories were never quite as awesome as anyone elses', but there were some pretty awesome stories from Nick, Glenn and J. These dinners are always good, good food, good company, fun stories. This entire weekend has been a good weekend for me. From my birthday through to tonight, I'm happy I've got such good memories and that I've made so many awesome friends. They've all made this first semester really fucking kick ass.

Yesterday was pretty chill. I slept most the day then spent damn near the whole afternoon over at Wesley House with Sean and Lizabeth. Nick wandered about and we ordered a pizza for food-sustenance. After leaving it was freezing and I walked back to Whitehurst where I ran into CR. We hung out and [insanely] walked up to the 7-11 on the other side of Hampton Bvld. We hung out together for the next two or so hours chatting about things and me asking him random questions that tend to float around me head. I asked them 'cause I was curious about his resonse more than anything else. Like, I've wondered about this one, why does society [very generalized] automatically ship together two people of the opposite gender if they're hanging out in public together. I mean, not every guy/girl friendship is going to lead to more than that, so why the senseless shipping? But that's for another journal.

Adios for now
:salute and bow:
Jasmine P.

November 10, 2007

BIRTHDAY!

Man, yesterday fucking kicked ass. I'll give a recount and assessment after i sleep....and boy do I need sleep.

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So, after that exciting 'I'm way to fucking tired to be writing' intro after sleeping 7 some hours, here's our real journal and intro =D

I slept yesterday until about 9:30 at which time I chilled and thanked people for birthday wishes on facebook. While i was walking to meet with Lizabeth for lunch I made up this song parody:
'It's my birthday and I can lunge if I want to. Retreat if I want to, ripost if I want to. You'd parry two if someone lunged at you too' What a great show of dork, but it made me laugh and is serious proof as to where my mind goes when it decided to pretend it's going to move out of the gutter. And i shit you now, i think of this song, every year, at some point on my birthday. Ever since I heard it in Problem Child I've forgotten which one but I seriously do think of that song.

So, we enjoy our lunches..for the most part then we bounce over to Borjo and I talk Rob into letting me get a discount coffee woot! I'll have to try that again next year :) From there we went over to Wesley House and spent the next two hours relaxing, watching TV with Sean and Nick wandered about kinda. At one point whilst Lizabeth, Sean, Nick and I were chilling, Sean tried to be sneaky and throw a bottle of Advil at Lizabeth, but he totally didn't look and he happened ot knock over a pretty much full cup of soda onto the carpet. All four of us were like '...that wasn't empty...hahahahaha' The rest of the time we spent there was spent throwing things at Sean or just plain hitting him with my scarf or hitting Lizabeth.

About 2.00 Lizabeth and I left Wesley and went over to Whitehurst so I could get my fencing gear because was going to fence Glenn. Glenn had something more badass in mind and it was awesome!!! I had no clue how elaborate ie was going to be but that made it that much more fun. I stretch and stuff inside the Whitehurst lobby 'cause it's cold outside, then I get a text from Allison which draws me and Lizabeth outside. I'm excited, crazy excited by now. Outside Glenn is dressed to fence, Allison is there to video the day, and I get to see CR, at which time I thank him for my gifts [gifts to be listed at the end].

I fence Glenn behind Whitehurst in a small grove of trees on the side of the building by the loading bay. Thankfully there were no hecklers on this side of the building. Downside, leave and soft ground are slippery... Glenn had us pose and I lunged awesomely killing him bwa ha ha! Then there was another time when he ran away when I attacked, then of course, I had to chase him, stabbing whilst we ran. So freakin' silly, so freakin' fun.

The four of us rode over to Wesley and from there we met Vadym at Kaufman where I got to fence epee! Epee was so deliciously sweet to fence. Here when I really lunged i end up slipping in the on the grass, I said the ground was soft...I was fine though. We moved from grass to concrete and continue our bout. While we're fencing Nick showed up and watches, he's itching to fight, Tristan appears and watches for a bit, and we get a small audience. The bike cop from before and Glenn got some girl's information, I assume she's intrigued and will be joining us at practice in the spring. I get a few really nice hits on Vadym here so I'm really looking forward to seeing the video of these bouts once Glenn edits it.

From Kaufman we walk up to the Village and go to the top of one of the parking garages where I get to fence sabre! My first sabre right is against Zorro T.T But after I got the hang of it, it was a lot easier and a lot of fun X3 Dan and Amanda were up there too, Dan had been fencing with Zorro a bit, probably for the hell of it... Nick kept count, I was seriously creamed by Zorro, I took thirty some hits before I landed 19 on him. I got a few good mask shots and some nice slices. I'm going to have to seriously have to look into fighting sabre me thinks. Glenn thinks that the backdrop of Norfolk from up here is going to look awesome on the video, I can seriously only look forward to it.

From here we walked back to Welsey, hopped into Glenn's car and go to meet Jason for my final bout. Sabre against spiked mace flail-thing. Seriously, we fence sabre on the boardwalk. I take a lot of hit, but i so slice up J's elbow a fair few times XD I also damn near ran him off of the boardwalk about 5 times. I don't know how well he may or may not have been a judge of his retreats, but I was conscious of how far back he was going. I would have felt like hell if I'd run him on the boardwalk. This was fun because I still barely knew what I was doing while I fenced, but I kind of tried to copy things I'd seen from watching him fence with CR and Nick. It took a bit of getting accustomed to for this bout, but I did alright.

There were many happy birthday wishes then Glenn drove me and Lizabeth back over to Wesley house where we chilled, chatted and I went through facebook again thanking people for their birthday wishes. Chatted with Sean some more, then Glenn joined us in the computer room, and Amanda after a time. This was also the second wind of the 'throwing crap at people' war and 'attacking Dan for the hell of it' and because he's ticklish. I'd originally just poked him, but he decided to retaliate and it escalated...not then, about an hour later...

Wandered back towards the TV and watched the end of 'Fun with Dick and Jane' ate some jawsome quesadillas that Dan made then watched 'Robin Hood: Men in Tights'. I entertained the idea of how funny it would be to have the fencers sing the men in tights song...while wearing tights. Zorro agreed to do it if other people were there too. During the movie I started/continued to harass Dan. Wen kind of ended up wrestling, it was actually really fun. My brothers and I never really fought, but I've done more play fighting since I've been down here...When ended when both of us were tired, and I'd broken a nail. I didn't care about the nail, it needed to be cut anyway.The movie ended and I called Glenn. We dropped Lizabeth off at Rogers and i got to ehe Naro justin time for Lust, Caution.

Lust, Caution was an interesting movie about a group of students who plotted to assassinate a pro WWII political leader. I like the soundtrack the movie has, the use of Western music as there is more of a Western presence in Hong Kong and Shanghai. After the movie let out, I got a ride back to campus from Glenn, then I had to write up a review for the movie. I did a write up about FreeRice.com for the News section then I finally crashed at about 3 this morning.

Yesterday was a good day.

Gifts:
Gramma, Aunt Cheryl, Dad: money
CR: Borjo gift card and choco covered espresso beans.
Lizabeth: tba
Glenn: Video of me fencing, foil bout
Vadym: epee bout
Zorro, Jason: Sabre bouts
Allison: laughs and filming of bouts
Other: birthday wishes


Adios for now
:salute bow:
Jasmine P.

November 4, 2007

restless

grrr! i swear right now i'm like, super crazy mad antsy or energetic! i either want to stick fight or just not have to deal with math homework. hell, right now i could even just go to bed [except i'd be up before the sun rose] i think i'mma have to work on eating my one meal of the day earlier than 6...some time about 4 might be better than waiting until 6. I also want some tea or coffee. I need something warm for my throat. And this is annoying as hell! the pink-eye transferred from my left eye to my right eye and every time i blow my nose i damn near pop my ears. i'm tired of this crud!

i don't know what i want, i just don't really want ot be alone atm. should i wander towards rogers and harass lizabeth or should i hope to run into cr and him be able to stickfight...man, i'm so annoying and restless right now i'm not even going to correct spelling or grammar. this is how i wrote this bitch! few to no caps frigga-dammit!

Adios for now
:salute bow:
Jasmine P.

November 1, 2007

All Hallow's Eve

So, last night was fun as all fucking hell! I spent just about all afternoon hanging out with Lizabeth before the party then we hopped a ride from Allison over to Glenn's for the party. Before leaving Whitehurst though, we grabbed a whole mess of extra candy from the cafeteria. Awesome, yes! It's for CR so whenever I see him today or something he gets a big Styrofoam box of chocolate.

To the beginning of the evening. After dinner Lizabeth and I took the time to get our costumes together. I still have stitch marks all over my arms, but i also haven't taken a shower yet...That might help, but Prismacolor markers take forever to wash off. I was Hawk from www.applegeeks.com if he were a zombie =D Lizabeth was a dirty hobo with injuries from various fights and stuff. It was fun putting these together. Glenn's costume was by far the most intricate, he was dressed as Iron Man. Hell, his costume was 60% sheet metal and he had a tap light on his chest. Nick was a catholic priest; Jason a gypsy, Allison a fairy, CR the Great Pumpkin, AJ was the Flash, Sean N was a fetal baby monster, Vadym...I never knew what he was...Dan F was a pirate, Zorro was Zorro, Travis was V, Alan was also Zorro, I think, Dan D was Superman and his girlfriend, Amanda, was Superwoman.

So, we get to Glenn's at 8 and Stephanie makes me a drink with vodka, orange juice, parrot bay and ginger ale. I drink three of these concoctions and i'm tipsy by 9.30. I know I never got drunk, I was just tipsy. Nobody believed me though, and after a while i just became passive and listened to their orders...somewhat.

Between the first two drinks I played a few games of Wii tennis before chatting with people while partially watching Return of the Killer Tomatoes. I drank a third drink sometime then, then I drank a bunch of water and ate Oreos and chocolates. I was rocking by now, it was fun floating around Glenn's place. Hmm, I harassed Travis for hugs and then chilled on the balcony with AJ just chatting and getting some fresh air until I was cold. I continued sitting and drinking cup after cup of water for a while whilst chatting and watching the movie.

Not too long after this, we went outside to break Glenn's Dora pinata. AJ slit her throat with a sabre and I think Jason finally took her apart when a flunge and the sabre. Candy was consumed and I floated up the stairs. I think I'd had a fourth drink by now and was reeling once more. It was fun, and I still know I wasn't quite drunk. I'd taken 1500mg of Tylenol right before the party, so I think the alcohol and the pain killers affected me as such, but :shrug: Inside the apartment I drank more water and spoke about whatever I was talking about. I do remember I said 'fuck' a lot, but I always say fuck a lot. Seriously.

Hmm, CR appeared sometime and then we all walked down to Red Dog and I drank coffee and ate some pizza that Nick paid for. 4.25 for coffee and some pizza isn't that bad though. They said I was being loud, I don't think/know if i was, but the funny things is I'm not normally that loud. Anywho, CR, J, Allison, Lizabeth and I walked back to Glenn's place and I was ordered to stay on the couch and rest. I never fell asleep, and I was always aware enough of my surroundings. I was a little sleepy though, but now is when I became passive. I laid on the couch for a while, but Vadym and Dan F stole my seat when I got up to pee. I then laid down in front of the TV for a while before taking the couch once more.

We hung out there just relaxing for a while but Lizabeth was dead on her feet and I was sober enough that I wasn't reeling anymore. I asked Zorro to drive us back because CR was busy playing video games and Glenn was over there too and I was in no mood to raise me voice to get him to drive us back. He dropped the two of us off and I returned to my room pleasantly buzzed again. From what, I've no clue since the last things I'd had to drink were water and coffee. I slept fine, but was slightly worried when I woke up after 5, I'd thought that maybe I was going to vomit, but I'm happy I didn't. I slept until 10 then finally woke up for the day, and decided to skip my 11 o'clock math class. I'm mad hungry now though.

Adios for now
:salute bow:
Jasmine P.