Body Hair

I'm not afraid to say this, no reason to worry either, I like porn. I like men in my porn. I like men who look like fucking men. I really dislike the trend that been going on for a while of men shaving themselves to be hairless twelve-year-olds, even when they're far from twink proportions. Seeing a ripped, chiseled, cut man rip his shirt off and he has barely a landing strip and no happy trail to speak of is saddening, and creepy. I'm not saying I want to see Robin Williams, well Young RW so it's less creepy, in porn, that man is a Sasquatch, but I want to see a comfortable amount of hair.

This question was sort of sparked by an ad I saw an Esquire for some Gilette razors that would have a man 'clean' for the boardroom, the beach and the bedroom, there were censor bars around his jaw, nipples and pubic region. I thought it was stupid. I find hair on a man to be alluring. I dislike the idea that a man should be sculpted or waxed, this goes for women too. I'm fucking proud of my body hair, I don't shave. I have reasons for not removing some hair, but my arms and legs look fine, so I keep them and I wear shorts in summer without stockings. When I see my male friends and they have a mass of hair on their arms I assume they have it on their torsos, and what little I have seen of their torsos I appreciate it not being tamed or cut back. (If any of you are reading this, sorry if I sound really creepy...) But it's up there with beards and facial hair. I am quick to say I love beards, mustaches and many of the combiations of such. I'm not the biggest fan of the just mutton chop look, but show me a pencil thin John Waters 'stache, a Van Dyke, goatee, soul patch (sometimes), handlebar, 5 o'clock shadow, full on beard, trimmed mustache-beard combination, handlebar and I'll raise an eyebrow. I'll also heartily encourage continuation of growth, or keeping it, rarely can I think of encouraging a male friend to shave, unless they have the creeper porno stache, that look should never be revived, it's too skeevy.

I was reading Savage Love and there happened to be a post a few years ago about the trend in hair removal, it seems apropos.

So the long and the short, I like men with hair. "Give me a man with hair. Long beautiful hair! Shining, gleaming, beautiful flaxen waxen!



Jasmine P.

Happyhappyhappyhappy

So, in another journal I said I was going to tell this guy I think he's cute.

I did.

He told me he thinks i'm pretty.

I'm happy. We exchanged numbers, so hopefully we'll go out...do something...soon... but I'm still just plain happy.

Jasmine P.

Movie Marathon Dreams...And Men

And so, nothing really special has gone on. I'm currently in the middle of watching my 73rd movie for the year. I understand Donnie Darko a lot better now having watched it with commentary.

I have decided that I much preferred Heath Ledger's performance in Lords of Dogtown than to his performances in both Brokeback Mountian and The Dark Knight. The voice, mannerisms, the character/person. Much more engaging, and a character than one can like more.

I have also thought of a nice little connector for my movies, but I don't have some of them, so I'm more in the middle of the connector than the beginning. If I were to do that, I'd start with Emile Hirsch in Into the Wild, Milk then Dogtown which would segue into Ledger, then after that Brokeback which would lead into Donnie Darko then Zodiac then any friggin Downey movie I could think of to tickle my fancy. That would be a sweet marathon set up.

On another note. Emile Hirsch is a total friggin' cutie, and I'd love to tell him that to his face. Hell, it's not often that I en up fancying a actor anywhere near my own age, that little piece of bombshell is 24. Very attractive, I tells ya.

Another attractive gent is this dude from fencing club. I won' go into details...or hell..this is my journal, and after going into detail about my surgery, I can be as fucking personal as I damned well please. The gent in question is Paul. Not often at practice, but way too fun to tease when he is there. But I also think that's the basis for the attraction. So easily flustered, but that's also what I try to do at times, just plain make him flustered. I think I do it because I crush on him a little. I dunno, maybe if he's at practice on the 28th I'll tell him I think he's cute.

I have decided that Jake Gyllenhaal has an adorable smile. I think that's what I end up liking the most about dides, their smile. Their personality, of course, but their smiles. Mouths apparently.

I've always thoguht I was an eye person, but I love ot smile, so I probably like seeing someone who knows how to smile myself. Makes for a good personality, and good spirits with proper smiling. I dunno. I've waxed on why I liked Ledger in Dogtown but that chatacter ezperienced such a wide array of emotions and such a downfall that he was much mroe interesting. Granted the emotional waves that occurr during Brokeback, but it was still something different and much more intriguing.

I like me some men, but I've never had one. It's a pipedream that doesn't seem as if it'll ever come to fruition. I guess pipedreams don't some to fruition, that's what they're called pipedreams. But the problem is I can't see my future. Normally see something. Well, I do see me moving out to California after graduation. Maybe some part of my dream will come true then.

That would be fun. Having any sort of change onthe relationship front would be pretty alright. From where I'm sitting, it would be a change for the better. Portnetioanlly. Then again, I guess I'm saying I'm not entierly happy with my life where it is.

That's also me saying, or thinking I'm depressed. I tend to think about relationships more when I'm feeling depressed or alone. Considering the movies I end up watching sometimes, that doesn't help anything. I'm a lonely frig. That's what I'll be, pretending I'm not.

My depression writing, these journals, are always full of fail. I end up writing about being forlorn or lonely. Doesn't really help anythijng. Time will grant me things I don't have now, and let's hope that somewhere in my future is love.

Bah, any time I think about men, my writing goes to crap. It's so depressed and boring.

And to voice a lament I've voiced before-I wish someone here would choose me. However...I can't wait until I'm more than just a bench warmer of life. Maybe this fall. Heh, I keep pushing my time back further and further. Time is a whore of a mistress. Things you want never last as long as you want them. And things you're waiting for take too long to arrive.

Jasmine P.