I'm not asking for answers to any of this, it's just what goes on in my head sometimes. How bad is it if I ask that nobody comments on this? And don't like it either, I think the like feature is bollocks.
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Why
Why am I such shit at staying asleep?
Why do I lose interest in people from simply not pursing them?
Why am I so fucking passive aggressive?
Why do I want or feel as if I need other people to tell me I'm a good person for me to believe it?
Why so much self-loathing?
Why do I run away?
Why do I speak my mind as rarely as I do?
Why do I speak my mind at the wrong times?
Why am I so fucking vague?
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Pretend
Sometimes I feel as if I'm a kid pretending to be an adult.
Sometimes I pretend I'm a kid when I want to shirk my responsilbilties.
I might pretend I never wrote this
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How
How can I be vain at the same time as I have low self-esteem?
How long will I feel like this?
How long until I am able to deal with this better?
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Statement
I second guess most of the comments I leave before I leave them.
I only look at a few people's profile pages.
Every now and again I click on webpages/websites linked from profile information
I can't stand tagging people, I feel as if I'm being exclusionary
I only read notes sporadically
I feel as if I impose.
I don't mean to be as abrasive as I feel I come off as
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What
What do I need to do to be happy?
What am I doing wrong?
What am I doing right?
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When
When will I be happy with me for more than a few hours, days or weeks at a time?
When will I feel loved? And I do mean feel it. I know I am loved, but sometimes I don't always feel it.
When will I get off my ass and publish things?
When will I feel successful?
Jasmine P.
--This could go on, but I don't feel like it.
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